I spent a long time choosing to do something I thought I wanted because I wanted stability. Everyone around me was saying that I needed to choose a career that would provide that stability in addition to a decent paycheck. Every time I turned around, someone was telling me what I should or shouldn't do. And it is pretty rough going from having all the support in the world to having none whatsoever.
Writing has always been my passion. Even when I was pursuing other things, it was always there. I write when I'm sad, when I'm happy, when I'm anxious, so when I'm excited. I write whatever comes to mind and try to make sense of it later. Sometimes I do really well, and other times I don't do so well. And I think that's certainly one of my favorite things about writing: It is unpredictable. What I come up with is about as unpredictable like me. I love coming up with new ideas and covering them.
Being a writer doesn't come with much stability. Especially like a freelancer. However, at the same time, it could be just the right amount of stability without having to be too much. I would rather realize that I am doing something I really like than making tons of money. Do I want to make money? Absolutely. Can one make money? Absolutely. I think it's all about drive and focus. You get out that which you put in. There are more opportunities available than people think, especially now that we live in such a digital society. There is honestly no telling where I might end up and what I might end up doing. But the possibilities are endless.
I love the thought of being able to create something new and original. Even when it's not the best, as long as it's my best, I will be satisfied. I sometimes put in endless hours of writing and editing. Reading and redoing. And sometimes I struggle to write anything. Only one of the great things about this experience is the fact that I get so much encouragement from people who are doing the same thing as I am doing.
I chose writing for several reasons, but the biggest reason is it allows me to express myself. I've never been great at expressing myself verbally, but through writing, I am allowed to edit and alter until I'm happy with the result. I have learned so much about myself through writing. I have learned what it is important to me and where I want my future to consider me. I take every opportunity I get because each one allows me to grow and develop better skills.
Writing may not be the most glamorous job in the world. It may not bring much money. But after the day, I will feel more successful in doing what I love than using a lot of money. I'm doing this for me, not for anyone else. There are many things I could do, however i wouldn't be happy. And I do not want an unhappy life. I want to be able to look back and know that I made the best decisions and that those decisions counseled me mine.
