Yet, you manage to keep your cool whenever your daily schedule allows for only one meal and three hours of sleep, and you have ten dollars on your card until payday on Friday.
Who are you currently afraid to disappoint anyways? Embracing that life could possibly get messy just shows that you can keep composure under some of the most difficult and draining situations that adulting can throw to you. The point is, you do what is best for you whether you're a hot mess or otherwise. That doesn't sound so much like chaos as it does getting your sh*t together now, does it?